Meagi's Ranting

I use it and then I abandon it for long periods of time. It must cry when I'm gone. I'm so mean to it.

I had my first real design job, but they put me on hold. At least they are paying me for what I've done so far. I like writing still and I'm sort of working on that. Don't get a lot of time though. Need to get money some how because I want to move out, so I can feel like I make ALL of the decisions for Ivan myself and not have to be changed by my mother and her rules.

When I move out and I am stable then I can date agian too. I really want to get into the dating scene again. I love flirting and going out and having fun and meeting new people. I'd also love to fill in the gaping stinging hole that is my lonliness. Though, I should be carful with that because that is what got me in trouble in the first place.

Ivan has apparently learned some sign language from the Baby Enstien DVDs we rented from the library. Now I have to buy them so I can watch them enough to learn it too. So that when he asks me for something using the sign, he won't be frustrated when I have no idea what he's asking me for.

Got up earlier today and did yoga. That was nice. I should do that more often. Also today, the book drive was up at school. I bought two old books and that was it. Go me!

Allison lost weight recently and wants to buy new clothes and then go out with me. I hope I can find a good time to do that with her soon. That will be fun.

I feel like firting with someone. I want to go dancing and flirt with new cute and cool guy. Please foreward one to me.