Ranting of Me

Fred and I have been discussing maybe dating after graduation. I hadn't said anything about it to my family, because I soon as I say I'm interested in someone they start reading in to everything that person does. And other things like that. This month Fred and I were talking and he was teasing me about how his family hears about me all the time and mine don't hear about him at all. So the next day I told them.

We had asked him to go to the zoo with us once after that. I don't really like the zoo, but it's a family outing he could join us for. It was short noticed and he had things to do at school so he couldn't make it. Then later we got the house all clean for the carpet guy to come and get the floors clean. I thought I would take advantage of the clean floors and invite him over for games. He said he'd come the next day after he went to see his family. Turns out his family just wanted to bitch at him all day about two small boxes of stuff he had in their garage. Then two of our friends got in this huge fight and one of them ended up talking with him and spending the night, so he had to postpone till the next day. He calls the next day to cancel, because he didn't get much sleep and his family was still yelling at him so he felt like crap. It was important to him to see my family when he could be a hapy social guest. So instead I went over to his place to make him feel better. Before I left my mom stopped me to tell me how he had canceled 3 times now and how I man who is in love with me would do anything for me.

OMG First, of all we aren't even dating so love in the relationship sense is way off in the distance. Second, those were casual invitations, not "I really need you to do this for me" moments. Flash forward to yesterday when it was decided that today we would go to the zoo to look for snow with our relatives from California. My mom asked me to ask Fred if he wanted to come. Again it was last minute and neither of us thought we were going to do anything with the family until after my dad's throat surgery. So he said he couldn't make it, but his reason was because he couldn't afford to by the drink and food stuff there. My family never buys that stuff so I thought it was stupid. He mentioned on my way out that his family would like me over for dinner on Friday. I grumbled because I didn't want to do a family thing with him when he had canceled on enough of mine for my mom to notice.

On the phone later we talked about it and he was willing to go to the zoo if I really wanted him too. I don't even want to go to the zoo. It was decided that we might want to forget doing holidays together this year. The whole thing about a lot of family seemed to be too much too soon for both of us. I want to be established on my own two feet, and he's trying to work out some commitment issues. Plus, it's important to him to feel like he can provide in a relationship especially when he is with a much younger single mom. So we are dialing back on the family stuff and going very slow. Which feels just right. Both of us being slow right now is part of why we work so well together.

I was being a stupid kid.
On Friday I had to leave early so I could talk to a counselor about classes. I showed mom my schedule for the fall semester and she started going on about the number of hours I would be gone and how I would have to get the kids through their school work and I got all upset about never being able to leave and was crying and felt horrible. I was talking to Fred about it later that night and he basically I was an ungrateful bitch.(He was nicer about it) Which hurt at the time, but it was true. So I had a reality check and discovered that I'm lucky and that the few annoyances I have to put up with are better than being a welfare slut.

There should be a class for Trekky Tech.
I finished my final portfolio for my tech tools class. Banged it out all in one day. It's not very good, but it's done so I'll get some points at least. I have accepted my C in that class. At least I won't have to take it again. I will probably get an A in other class which is cool. It's also cool that my teacher for that class said we should go for lunch on the last day. Should remember to get phone numbers from people in that class. They would be fun to hang out with again. I also need to see how many people are seeing Star Trek that day. Josh and I are seeing it Thursday. My friend allison wants me to dress up, but I don't think she'll find a costume for me in time. Oh well.

Speaking of Star Trek, I watched "The Cage" last night. It was one of the original pilot for the show. Back when it was still Captain Pike, and the second in command was a woman.


It's growing on my face!
I have this thing on my lip. I wasn't sure if it was a cold sore or a zit, and I'm still not sure but I'm leaning more towards a cold sore. Today, it is humongous! It's so ugly and pussy and eeeewwww. I can't touch it either, because it's technically a virus and I don't want to make it worse. I'm putting medication on it, but it's not getting any better. I hope it goes away soon.

Mom was putting all the baby stuff out today and told me that if Ivan wasn't going to use the toddler bed, she was going to give it to Shaylee. Ivan is now taking a nap in his toddler bed in my room.

I was researching third party canidates the eery night before McCain announced that Palin would be his VP. I watched her speech and could actually get excited. So, this year I may be filling in the bubble next to McCain, but I'm really voting for Palin.

I have been playing AQWorlds a lot lately. I found three quests that I and do simultaniously and repetitivly, so that's a good way to level. And ounce I reach that level cap (almost there!) they are also a very good way to make money and get flithy rich and then I can walk around with super cool items.

Appartently, if you skip too many meals, you actually do start to fill sick. Right now I look like I should be starting to eat brains any minute now. So, I've been sipig on slim fast all day, and I'll be attempting to not miss anymore meals. I just don't get hungry anymore though. O.o

There is final a new face to the movie night crowd. He was a new friend of Daniel's and now at least from my point of view)is worshiping Fred. I think Fred has a new best friend.