Ranting of Me

Since I totally failed NaNoWriMo I am going to do my own month of writing next month. Wish me luck, because I will be battling laziness, self critiques and the dread writer's block.

Ivan is still working on the potty training thing. Tried putting him in thick underwear for a couple of hours today. Again, right after I sat him on the little toilet, he went downstairs and then wet himself. This is going to take a while. He's also doesn't talk as much as a lot of kids his age. He doesn't talk almost at all when we go out somewhere. Need to encourage him to talk more and say more words. He's smart, he just doesn't seem to want to interact very much. Hopefully this is just a stage.

I have been watch The Seeker. It is defiantly not a new Hercules or Zena. I think the two main characters are annoyingly tragic and need acting lessons. However, the secondary characters are usually very good. The story line is typical, but the individual episodes are good enough to hold my interest. Plus, I love the fact that the confessor character type in the show is like a coercer from EQ2. Yes, I do play a coercer so that part greatly amuses me.

Shaylee got sick with a cold/stomach thing and was all better in a few days and only was puking one of those days. However, now everyone else is sick. No, not everyone is sick, but it's true that no one really slept at all. Mom was helping kids all night and is sick now. Micheala and sarah are moaning on the couches downstairs. Ben is still sleeping but was up a lot last night. Dad had to get up early to take the dogs in for their check up. He was also going to take Brittany to work so I wouldn't have to, but I was up anyway. Ivan woke up at 4 something and got mad at brittany because she told him to go back to sleep. I got up and helped him and then he did sleep. Till about 6:30 anyway. Then there was no hope of him going back to sleep. I tried to keep in the room as much as I could in my exhaushted state. Brittany was still pretty testy with him. Either I'm very patient or Brittany doesn't handle lack of sleep well.

Movie: To Live
This movie follows a married couple in China from the 1940's into the 70s. It was really sad, I can't tell you why if you want to watch it,but trust me when I say it's really really really sad. It's also banned from China. The reasoning being that it was too true to life. It pointed out the obvious flip-flop of the political agenda and parties and that it wasn't all bad before Communisum. Over all it's a very good historical piece.

I use it and then I abandon it for long periods of time. It must cry when I'm gone. I'm so mean to it.

I had my first real design job, but they put me on hold. At least they are paying me for what I've done so far. I like writing still and I'm sort of working on that. Don't get a lot of time though. Need to get money some how because I want to move out, so I can feel like I make ALL of the decisions for Ivan myself and not have to be changed by my mother and her rules.

When I move out and I am stable then I can date agian too. I really want to get into the dating scene again. I love flirting and going out and having fun and meeting new people. I'd also love to fill in the gaping stinging hole that is my lonliness. Though, I should be carful with that because that is what got me in trouble in the first place.

Ivan has apparently learned some sign language from the Baby Enstien DVDs we rented from the library. Now I have to buy them so I can watch them enough to learn it too. So that when he asks me for something using the sign, he won't be frustrated when I have no idea what he's asking me for.

Got up earlier today and did yoga. That was nice. I should do that more often. Also today, the book drive was up at school. I bought two old books and that was it. Go me!

Allison lost weight recently and wants to buy new clothes and then go out with me. I hope I can find a good time to do that with her soon. That will be fun.

I feel like firting with someone. I want to go dancing and flirt with new cute and cool guy. Please foreward one to me.

I would love to make a New Year's resolution to write in my LiveJournal everyday, but I know it won't happen. It's hard to get any time on the computer when your toddler makes a new mess 30 seconds after you cleaned up the last one.

*gets up to clean up cearal mess*

*comes back*

As I was saying. I want to write everyday, which I will try to do, but I make no promises.

( Things to look forward to this year. )

( Things I'd like to get done everyday. )

Wouldn’t it just be my luck to discover that it is the official novel writing month in the middle of the month. Like I didn’t have enough trouble getting myself to as it is, now I’ve missed the majority of a good motivator. Maybe I really can write 50,000 words in two weeks. Or I could pluck all the keys off my keyboard and eat them.

Sometimes I think that a type writer would be very inspiring. Although, I’m sure that it would actually be mostly annoying. You would be in the middle of a very exciting scene, and then a paper jam! Plus, no sepll cheek.

Moving away from mental anguish now, I have switched to contacts. I love being able to see things again. There is a sale tomorrow, so I am buying the rest of my year supply then.
Ivan uses a year’s supply worth of mischief everyday. No wonder I can’t get anything done. Including my homework. I have one more out of class essay to finish, but I haven’t even started. I better do well on my finals.

Fun word of the day: lackluster
adjective
1. lacking brilliance or vitality; "a dull lackluster life"; "a lusterless performance"
2. lacking luster or shine; "staring with lackluster eyes"; "lusterless hair"

Mom was putting all the baby stuff out today and told me that if Ivan wasn't going to use the toddler bed, she was going to give it to Shaylee. Ivan is now taking a nap in his toddler bed in my room.

I was researching third party canidates the eery night before McCain announced that Palin would be his VP. I watched her speech and could actually get excited. So, this year I may be filling in the bubble next to McCain, but I'm really voting for Palin.

I have been playing AQWorlds a lot lately. I found three quests that I and do simultaniously and repetitivly, so that's a good way to level. And ounce I reach that level cap (almost there!) they are also a very good way to make money and get flithy rich and then I can walk around with super cool items.

Appartently, if you skip too many meals, you actually do start to fill sick. Right now I look like I should be starting to eat brains any minute now. So, I've been sipig on slim fast all day, and I'll be attempting to not miss anymore meals. I just don't get hungry anymore though. O.o

There is final a new face to the movie night crowd. He was a new friend of Daniel's and now at least from my point of view)is worshiping Fred. I think Fred has a new best friend.

It never sises to amaze me, how inconsistent I can be.

Current News:
Brittany leaves for Japan tomorrow
I have rearranged my room
Ivan HATES sleep
School starts Tuesday
New icons and journal theme
I'm sooooo tired
Still writing, but also still idea hoping

Currently Watching:
Supernatural
Project Runway
The Middle Man
Eureka
Masterpiece Theater

I am trying one nap in the middle of the day for Ivan. 1)Because he didn't seem tried at the time of his usual first nap, and 2)I was being lazy and didn't want to get off the computer. Well, I put him in his crib, closed the door and ten minutes later no screaming. Usually it takes at least 40 minutes for him to stop yelling. So, I went in to check on him and discovered that I had left my netflix where he could get it. He had taken the disk out of both envelopes without ripping anything and was laying down looking at the shiny side. Needless to say, I took it from him, and now I sit in the kitchen and Ivan is starting to actually settle down.

I need to go hunt down Shawn. He was suppose to work on his math where I could see him while Mom is gone, but he hasn't come out of his room yet. He is probably reading his book. Looks like I'll have to get up and drag his butt out here. It drives me nuts how disrespectful he is. Though I guess there are a lot of other 15-year-olds who are worse than he is.